Hard Time Remembering

Okay, so there haven't been many posts lately. I attribute this to two things:

1. Working fifteen-hour days over at EC takes a toll, alright?
2. It's dang hard to remember what one dreamed when the first step on the ground is made towards whatever my soon-to-be-born son and his seven-and-a-half-months-pregnant mother need from me.

That said, I suppose I have been doing some thinking during the day, so there might be some merit to blogging those thoughts.

Were I not so tired, I'd probably be writing on my book in these months--I've been reading some phenomenal books myself, and I've got thoughts to contribute. I wish that I were more employable as a preacher. I think I've got enough to offer a congregation now that I'd be worth hiring, but on my resume, the multiple master's degrees and the years of education make me look not thoughtful but dangerous. And dangerous isn't what many churches want. At least not the ones I'd want to serve. Yes, I've become Groucho Marx--"I wouldn't join any club that would have me as a member." (I think that was Groucho Marx, but I suppose it could have been Winston Churchill or any of those old famous dudes who seemed to speak in one-liners.)

But since teaching is wearing me out, I keep returning to my favorite opiate--computer games. I'm in season three of my Madden 2003 (I'm cheap, so no, I'm not buying the new version), and when I get home and know that I only have forty minutes before it's time to start cleaning the house, I don't open Word to write. I pick up the controller and become, for a brief spell, a Peyton Manning who on occassion beats the Patriots.

So now I'm waiting. Waiting for Micah to get born. Waiting on Ph.D stuff to come in. Waiting to see whether Mary can find work anywhere. Waiting to see if any of my resumes will yield fruit at any of the churches I've applied to. Not a great situation, but I suppose that's life. I've got so many horses in this race that I still haven't given any thought to the unhappy possibility that none of them wins. I suppose that will come if it comes as well.